I wanted to share a recipe I found a few weeks after my mother died. Literally hours after she died, I scoured the kitchen for recipes I remembered growing up hoping she wrote them for posterity.
I’m lucky I found a few written in her hand, and even more written in my (also) decreased grandmother’s handwriting. It’s those recipes that mean the most, not because I may or may not like the food, but because she enjoyed it enough to preserve it in her pantry.
More than a year later I still stumble across handwritten letters or post-its. At first glance I tear up at its familiarity, but I also take comfort in that I have a tangible memory. Some are smeared or covered in grease spots; I don’t care. She will never walk this earth again.
Recently I came across her recipe for apple sauce cake. Sadly I don’t know much about it, or where it came from. I just remember eating it and enjoying it.
I hope you will too.
Apple Sauce Cake
1/2 cup butter
1 cup sugar
1 cup cold unsweetened applesauce
1 teaspoon soda
1 cup raisins or nuts, cut in pieces
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon powered clove
2 cups flour
3 eggs – beat in one at a time, add to sugar and butter. Next step then applesauce
1 teaspoon vanilla
Cream butter, add sugar gradually. Then do eggs. Add soda to applesauce and add to butter and sugar. Add other ingredients and baked in buttered and floured pan 40 minutes in a 350-degree oven.
This cake may be frosted or left plain and it keeps very well. Freezes well. It is particularly good with coffee any time of day.
My mother loved cooking and baking for my father and I. Many times I’d come home from school and be surprised with giant Valentine’s Day cookies or cakes, or stews. I do miss that dearly.
But I take comfort that she’s enjoying her time now wherever she is, and hopefully making new friends and traveling the world.
I really couldn’t ask for a better mother.
I hope you feel the same with yours.
Happy Mother’s Day